food for thought: a day to recharge

In-n-out

I rarely take breaks. The old adage “I’ll sleep when I’m dead” is rings verrrry near and dear to my heart. However, Tuesday night I was wiped. Like nothing sounded more appealing than sleeping all of Wednesday. My body was like:

Nat, you’ve been go go go since before Thanksgiving and you need a break. I’m tired. No, really, I’M LE TIRED.

Okkk okkk, I’ll sleep in and relax…

And let me tell you, it was hard to do! Around 10am I was responding to a text thread and my friend text yelled at me:

Why aren’t you actually sleeping in?

SLEEP

Fine. Yes. I just needed ‘to be’ knowing that my body and mind needed rest. My mind was naturally harder to turn quiet, I am VERY good at forming to-do lists. But I gave myself permission (with the help of friend’s permission) to let the ‘to-dos’ wait. That way I could attack the list from a charged state. No a semi-charged (charmed ūüėČ ) one.

Taking those few more hours to stay in bed was fantastic. I didn’t sleep the entire time, but read and didn’t give a flying duck about doing work. And you know what? The world still turned, I still got an audition for the following day, and allowed the uneasiness of not doing anything slowly melt away.

Moving forward, I am going to give myself ONE FULL DAY to recharge. Just sleep, read, go to bed at an earlier than normal hour, check my phone less, and do something crafty. Whether that’s doodling, making a vision board, coloring, knitting, playing with play dough- it helped get me out of my diligent left brain and enjoy the moment a whole lot more.

Now, I give YOU permission. Take a full day off. And if you can’t give yourself a full day, try a few more hours in bed or read the book on your nightstand, or whatever. But forget about things *in a healthy way* for a few hours so you come back to those tasks ready to GO. Promise you’ll be in more of a flow.

Have a fantastic weekend.

Cheers!

NP

note to self

I call myself an “actress with an appetite”, right? You’ve seen the appetite part, but where does the¬†actress come into play? I haven’t starred on a hit TV show, let alone had a one-line role on a sitcom. Perhaps the title for my blog should be “aspiring-actress-with-an-appetite-(that-she-should-control-because-the-camera-adds-10-lbs)”. But it’s not. And never will be.

As a 5 year old, I told my mom “I want to be an actress and waitress” (smart kid I was!). And¬†I have been pursuing that dream ever since. Not always in the most direct routes, but one of the things I value in life is to “experience it”. Fully. I chose to attend college, I leave LA to visit friends and family frequently, I don’t obsess over calories, and I don’t allow fear of not being the person¬†they [Hollywood} want¬†dictate my decisions (98% of the time). Obviously there are moments when I doubt myself, AND I didn’t waltz in to LA three years ago with this mindset. But I’ve learned self-confidence and a good dose of “you are enough” mantras of are key to a happy creative lifestyle.

Right now I¬†audition, not frequently, but getting into rooms. I am making my own content and wine videos. It’s not the average path to getting a role, but it’s my way. There’s a quote out there about how “when a spaceship launches it inevitably ends up diverting off the scheduled-course numerous times before landing on the moon.” I have to be my own champion and define my own success in order to not throw in the towel. I am going to land on the moon damnit! It might not be next week, but I will keep working hard in order to land that role.

NOTE TO SELF:

I am an actress and I have a huge appetite for life (donuts, fried chicken, and cereal milk soft serve). Keep doing¬†you. It’s worth the time spent. Believe in yourself.

NOTE TO FRIENDS AND READERS:
  • Stay creative (if that’s what you like)
  • Do things that bring you happiness (try a bunch of activities if you’re not sure what that is)
  • Define your own success (if you leave it up to others, you’ll never feel fulfilled)
  • 99% of the time, at least¬†look¬†at the dessert list (1% of the time you’ll be so full you’ll need to be wheeled out of the joint)

Let me know what you’re pursuits are, I’d love to watch, listen, participate, and promote in any way I can.¬†